Date GalThe 'I Hate Men' Stage
I cut my hair this week.. short blunt fringe, messy look… like a 60’s glam rock singer. I have also been wearing black dark make up and wearing black clothes. Why? No – I am not channeling Christina Amphlett from The Divinyls… no it’s my ‘fk all men’ stage. Women often go through this after some dirty dog has played them for a fool and pissed them off. Being hurt and angry at the same time is a dangerous combination and that is exactly what I am going through at the moment.
Not so angry at this particular person but more angry at myself that I let this guy into my world, that I believed his bullshit and that I let him play me for so long.
It started a few months back and my first mistake was getting involved with someone I work with. You know when every time you start a work thing you think it will be different and it’ll work. Don’t be disillusioned. It never does and it’s always the chick that comes off second best.
It was all really good… went out, laughed, enjoyed each other’s chemistry, text, email, call, chatted, everything. Then it all seemed to just go to shit. Why? Well I only just found at the real reason the other day via text.
I went off this guy when I could feel him being distant. I thought the only way to stop liking him was to hate him and ignore him. It worked for a week and then he went overseas for a week for work. The whole time he text me… and being the fool I am, I text back. These weren’t ‘hi how are you’ texts, no! These were texts that if your Grandma saw she would have a heart attack.
It seemed everything was back on track… but a week after he returned, again it went to shit. In my usual fashion, I drunk called (another mistake) and gave him a serve for treating me the way he did. Oh the next morning I hated myself. I just decided in my head that it was over and he was a dirty dog.
I got a text from him a couple of days after explaining that he didn’t want to get into a relationship after his last one and he should have told me a while back… yep you should have told me from the start buddy. Thing was, like most men, he thought as soon as he started pashing me I wanted a relationship? Um… no thanks. Sometimes girls just want fun… no strings attached and well I didn’t really want to have one with him, just enjoyed his company. Loser!
So now I am angry and hurt… and I need to be like that for a little while. It’ll pass and I am sure we’ll be friends but in the meantime I will ignore the loser, keep my hair the way it is, work out at the gym like no tomorrow and well hate all men… for the moment anyway!
Christina Amphlett eat your heart out!
Til next time,
DG x
